17/5/2010-18/5/2010

yesterday and 2day yesterday so cold now i still cold also now is 3.12am i not yet sleep i oledi one day at outside waow i didnt have the feeling right now oledi, later morning need to go out with my friend xiao feng again, just now the car so shit , so hate , on the road of the road there rosak already waow that is my 1st time with my friend on the way road stop at the high way tim....waow reli is my 1st time Ohhh but im lucky my friend just we noe each other 6month friend they come to help us...i like them my lovely boy friend they my good bro....i also 1st time ask them to help me , they will help me thanks god...have a friend help me....my friend car reli wanna go in work shop later lurh haiz....need 2 go out again... so boring and tired in house also boring already...haiz....i reli look like an old human old ppl....all my friend also calling me to me and davina davincii there aiyoh....hahah but any way thanks for the worry about me and my friend they are sweet frend for me ^^ hope our friend have lucky on their feature...^^ nice to meet u all and miss u guys... i smoke shisha...im notty^^ but i very bad mood on yesterday haiz....:( i reli miss her miss the way to me, haiz

16/5/2010

today life in keningau, a place name call keningau, i very jealous when a tb touch her and she sit at the tb there but i can do what? she stil not mine.... im very care about her , today im very happy when i went to there and saw her went to KFCC is a place for the bus station there, today raining so havy but we run here and there aiyoh i gave them the ambrella they dunwan using haiz need i wear a cap to bring that to go on keep ran faster to the shop there haiyoh, today also went to kai ying house i pass the present to her , i duno what her feeling yah she look like no feeling just say dun make her shy wah...aiduh , i quarrel with her again, she wanna with her ex back i very angry im so hate her why she wanna 2gt back with her ex coz her ex treat her like that stil wanna go back with her ex oh? make me very upset but she just thinking of that and she always like to sleep sleep sleep sleep haiz....z x y dun sleep larh so much i know u 2day also tired thx for ur kind way to accompany us to ur place there keningau i love u and im will waiting for u in my life....im so caring about u......NOw is a second day now is 12.24 am a next day 17.5.2010 monday

爱不单行很刚我的心情

找不到人说 心里的寂寞
找不到人懂 怕黑的折磨
找不到命中注定 在一起的那个人
很多人都像我 一个人过生活

爱 只有简单笔画 却比想象复杂
恨安定爱变化
我爱过几个人 也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下
爱 是不可数的吗 为何我还相信
它不是独行侠
我在等一个人 在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕
用不完身边 泛滥的自由
开始怕孤单 是一种诅咒
羡慕我能飞的人 为何在天黑以后
还是宁愿回到 爱情那个枷锁
告诉我爱不单行相信它

歌词中的话题就是像我现在的心情

最后都还是一个人孤单的生活

心理什么人都没有爱人什么也没有，只有周围的人关心我

朋友也没有多少个了，最后也还是一个人的。。孤单，孤独的。。

心理还患串了毛病，还要去医治。。浪费了不少的时间还要等待时间两个月的时期。。。

24/3/2010

今天，我觉得很闷，世界快闷死了。。两个月后就去动手术了，真的讨厌。。我停了抽烟呵呵，也没有喝最爱的可乐了。。。真的很闷。。。：（

this is all my pic...

my hand so pain....
that time very pain...


in the hospital cant move my hand...
so hard to eat....

09/3/2010

my heart suddenly jump on afternoon 2-7 pm like this coz i also duno what happen on my heart very suffer that time from now on i cant so oledi haiz.. so charm...:( why this happen on me? aiyoh...izzit my timing up? i dont care as long now is okie oledi, my heart jump so fast go 2 stay at hospital walao so lan si at the hospital stay very hard 2 stay nia... when 5am o-clock that time a nurse come to ask me so much question very blur after i wake up...and the katil also not nice 2 sleep very keras de...so lan si larh...check whole nite also no result come out..stupid larh..kejap say want go 2 kl operation and kejap say no need duno what the doctor talking about it...i tak tau larh what the happening...aiks, 185 oh my heart jump fast at nite when in the wad emergyncy.... so bad larh my heart now aday i cant smoke grr....:( good also larh they wont give me smoke just one day one batang....:(

6/3/2010

what the fuck u always like to zhen dui wo ? izzit i have cai dao ni de wei ba arh? always come say on me.... diao , i didnt treat u so bad , dont u bad with me ,or talking back of me , i dint say u oledi okie...

3/3/2010

yesterday many thing happen on me , suddenly i with sam low together....but we look like do noe each other...how come u reli wanna be with me？but whatever i will try 2 be with you...as u wanna try with me yah i noe...other thing is ...about my friend haiz..im so hate to be like this...all also is a good friend...but just a girl become like this...all is girl...nvm is okie now d thing gonna to be handdle oledi... good bye all bad thing goes...

1/3/2010

in the end is my wrong to see a msg...she is not to accept me , just appreciate me, haiz...what should i do? i love her i cannot control everything , i reli hope i can go out from sabah dun want stay here...dunwan everything love in love very suffer...love someone so deep very suffer , cannot with her .... what i can do? what should i do? im so hate myself im now feel tired tired tired hope to closing out myself... i donwant living i dont want life...im so hate.....

28/2/2010

nothing much yesterday i when with nichole max...haha,but the mood still okie....3/1 she say will accept me one day ... but i so happy but i willing waiting for u , my heart is full of u , all also for u , and i love u so much , i cannot love other or miss other from now on...becoz my heart is belong to u , as i will waiting the time to coming of my life , i dun care now u have bf, i will be with you, and waiting u , u not happy i also not happy , u happy ii happy... when u sad im also sad...when u crying im also heart pain...i duno why ... all the day with u talking handphone yah i feel comfortable, one day no talking hp with u , im missing u , do u noe that i very love u , and miss u in my heart....although i also no that to find other...when want find other my heart also belong to u no one can take out my heart from now on...i will waiting u .... i reli love u , yesterday 28/2/2010....afternoon with nichole going out...she say u memurat there my heart very angry i duno why? and cemburu, yah when u say u have 2... im also cemburu oledi....haiz...but what i can do? this is ur choose... i will waiting u only...what is ur desition now... im still support to u, and be with you.... i love you

27/2/2010

lonely life is a boring day.... what gonna 2 do? in my relationship is more bad become a day in a day...so stupid my relationship....i hate lonely no one accompany me....all my siblings also have their own thing 2 do ... just only me nothing 2 do at all always will thinking a side on negetif haiz why my life so boring without nothing 2 do ..? yah i go on the wrong life because no one family like their own doughter 2 become lessbian, but i cannot like or love boy become on my feeling , i hate with boy...why should to be boy? why cant be with girl? izzit the life is to up jesus? haiz i noe this is the jesus want girl and boy 2gether sorry i cant do that , i like girl i like lessbian not boy................hate the feeling , i hate lonely , i wanna people love me and truelly give me a true love....? like this have wrong marh? just wanna choose a love that is myself like it also have wrong marh? haiz i damn bad in my relationship right now...!!!! no love no life no everything on me hate!!!

bad romance the feeling is like so sweet and good...

Love-love-love
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad bad and bad

I want your loving
And I want your revenge
You and me put on a bad romance

but sweet love in look like bad romance so how?
haiz.....
all also same in love lorh....
bad romance i want do all like this...

i want ur love ....

26/2/2010

i hate love becoz u say sorry to me become a friend back so what? izzit u like this my heart will be okie marh? so what? i dont want u become my friend oledi .... and i didnt like to like this feeling , when 2gether become a friend be back what the fucking love? shit love?...... izzit all love is unfaitfull to me ? so bad and complicated yah...all i need to throw away from my heart , i choose better way 2 be single always...hate 2 be couple and many many and lonely i also hate...shit , mayb this year i cant on love too...so bad on love... i will concertreat on study better finish my study untill the end of life ...all love throw it rubbish....no use...

25/2/2010

我终于找到一个女朋友了， 虽然还不是很了解你， 但我会照顾你用我的心， 我不会玩人，希望你也不会哦。。。我真心的跟你一起，谢谢你的爱，我想你。。。。i finally find out gf in my life i hope i can give u my heart to u , i wont play u , u dun play too coz i using my heart 2 treat u , as long i still here i wont treat u badly....i will give u alot of love that u want it^^

19/02/2010

why my life become like this on love? yesterday i feel happy with you, but u have other then u love her....i feel im a bad tb, u are very open mind that on ur love... i cant say anything 1st she is ur bf oledi i can say anything im reli feel angry of that but what i can do ? we oledi noe each other only one day and 2gther one day.... 18 we 2gether yesterday we meet up..now is 20/2/2010....i feel xin fu , happy with you i reli dunwan losing of u , but i reli cant say anything what i can do? yesterday with you going out , and my ex & her bf & my dougther, in kk....yes im feel happy all the time , it was no longer but i reli happy on that... what u tell me , u like i like , i that was i dun like to hear it.... about my love on u...i can say i reli love u to give me all the feeling as long we are not reli noe each other well, u choose her, i will let u go... izzit im stupid rite? other girl i didnt think as i like them ... but not love them...i will be a single tb as long what i want now ... hope u be back urself and carefully to ur lover , i dunwan to be a 3rd ppl person, but i need 2 tell u ... my heart reli full of u , i reli dun berat hati to let u go..im saying true laopo wo ai ni, i noe im suffer all of that becoz i need 2 follow ur feeling... yesterday with you in car kissing all my friend shock it.... but u reli open mind and i not reli biasa of that , i tell u at here i never do that with my ex...but i will follow u...thx 2 give me all the feeling i had that was last experience in the open mind with all my friend looking at us....^^
but im okie...i reli dont hope 2 let u go... laopo im reli reli reli reli reli reli reli reli reli reli reli reli love u... i wanna u be my laopo as long until i die...this is to u darling laopo

we 2gether : 18/2/2010
we noe other : 17/2/2o1o
we meet up 19/2/2o1o

what will we do for other day and coming day ?

:(

i reli dunwan losing u ....

im telling the truth.....:(

17/2/2010

today life is better but also boring day, what i need 2 say , yah in the end i can see u , but i cant thinking about it ur style like baby wakaka...very noisy lea.... aiai , aiyoh.... i like chay yan, but impossible she will like me and she will with me , that impossible she wanna be with me, haiz... nvm we are friend then okie...she is nice girl but i can say that she very diam diam no talking many with me so sad.... but is okie , chay yan i like u .....how about other girl im attending but no one can give me respon ,im lonely in the end im lonely back the feeling really dont like but what to do? no gf is okie now life is single can chase other girl.... today with you guy yah thx god can meet ....^^ they cam here so far, hmmph...the pink colour also diam diam d....chay yan stil okie have get picture with her...coolzai also okie...not bad lorh, all past ten i dun care as long they sweet on love , i dont hope anything, leo brother today have with me go yamcha with them a little kids haha, very noisy that jenny muahaha , hmmph.....i know one tb name ah qing, 2day with them have plus me , 9 ppl ,hahaha .... 2 of them is lahad datu ppl , one is labuan...all in kk...guy have a nice day leo, max, nic, qing, yan , dianna,coolzai , jenny ong.....and me all have a peaceful day oh^^

what is call love?

what is love? love is what? why make ppl so confuse? why ? so hard 2 confidance...why...why i want a love it is so hard 2 recover my mind? why? so hard? what is love ? who can tell me? love very hard izzit? i very hate in love , why d love make ppl so hate it? why?