找不到人说 心里的寂寞
找不到人懂 怕黑的折磨
找不到命中注定 在一起的那个人
很多人都像我 一个人过生活
my hand so pain....
that time very pain...
in the hospital cant move my hand...
so hard to eat....
my heart suddenly jump on afternoon 2-7 pm like this coz i also duno what happen on my heart very suffer that time from now on i cant so oledi haiz.. so charm...:( why this happen on me? aiyoh...izzit my timing up? i dont care as long now is okie oledi, my heart jump so fast go 2 stay at hospital walao so lan si at the hospital stay very hard 2 stay nia... when 5am o-clock that time a nurse come to ask me so much question very blur after i wake up...and the katil also not nice 2 sleep very keras de...so lan si larh...check whole nite also no result come out..stupid larh..kejap say want go 2 kl operation and kejap say no need duno what the doctor talking about it...i tak tau larh what the happening...aiks, 185 oh my heart jump fast at nite when in the wad emergyncy.... so bad larh my heart now aday i cant smoke grr....:( good also larh they wont give me smoke just one day one batang....:(
what the fuck u always like to zhen dui wo ? izzit i have cai dao ni de wei ba arh? always come say on me.... diao , i didnt treat u so bad , dont u bad with me ,or talking back of me , i dint say u oledi okie...
yesterday many thing happen on me , suddenly i with sam low together....but we look like do noe each other...how come u reli wanna be with me？but whatever i will try 2 be with you...as u wanna try with me yah i noe...other thing is ...about my friend haiz..im so hate to be like this...all also is a good friend...but just a girl become like this...all is girl...nvm is okie now d thing gonna to be handdle oledi... good bye all bad thing goes...
in the end is my wrong to see a msg...she is not to accept me , just appreciate me, haiz...what should i do? i love her i cannot control everything , i reli hope i can go out from sabah dun want stay here...dunwan everything love in love very suffer...love someone so deep very suffer , cannot with her .... what i can do? what should i do? im so hate myself im now feel tired tired tired hope to closing out myself... i donwant living i dont want life...im so hate.....